Currently Once: Music from the Motion Picture By Original Soundtrack see related

today i auditioned for a play.

walking into the auditorium and seeing the stage, smelling the musty wood, paint, faint school/gym smell. i felt so very much in my element. in some place that made me imediatley comfortable.

on this island everything feels foreign and vaguely unappealling. there are few dark, dimly lit, antique places. everything is bright and breezy.

i didn't understand how much auditioning for a play would make my soul breathe.

they needed white people and there aren't many. i'm garanteed a spot because i can read and i'm white. i'm ok with that. my talents in the theatrical world aren't over the top amazing.

i'm excited to spend time in that room on that stage. that's what makes this fun. just the location.

i miss the arts.

i get to sing.

i may even get to dance.

i feel happy for the moment.

Currently Listening Renegades By Rage Against the Machine see related

hello dear friends.

another summer

wasted in thought and deed.

close to no writing was accomplished.

almost no sanity remains.

i made music

am making music, should i say.

fell in love.

fell out.

then maybe

back in again.

having lunch with the one person who has made it all seem like the usual progression.

oh jen.

how you make my heart sing.

lollapolooza starting tomarrow

going through till the fourth.

open road and my brothers at my side.

of to be inspired by the raging of our youth.

good God how beautiful it will be.

yes?

yes.

hello

i haven't written you in a while.

i haven't really written anything in a while.

i'm ok with that.

brain has been empty excetp the things that have already been written in a thousand different ways already. sometimes i prevent myself from writing drivel.

i hope it rains and thunders on tuesday. maybe today a little as well.

new times are coming.

i would like for my brandon to come home and be a college kid with me again. it makes my heart sad that soon we will all be apart from one another. it's all coming to that end that we've been warned of. the real world is looming and decisions must be made. hearts must be broken and locations must be changed. some of us may get husbands and wives and mortgages with a baby to boot.

others will rot away into themselves. they may stay in this town or let their problems chase them to another but it doesn't really matter because these are the people that will not notice their own rise and fall. they will only see the inside of their eyelids as they walk through life.

i may be one of them.

so may you.

we artistic types have so much to give and so much to loose in doing so.

i may not sit in the same room with the people that know my soul ever again.

onward